It seems like we always go through seasons.
Winter. Spring. Summer. Fall.
(all you have to do is call)
Wait .. hold on .. wrong direction.
In my life, at this point, I am desperately seeking change. Change from monotony. Change from society. Change from the complexities of mothering, being a wife, friend. I am looking for more understanding in human interaction. More life long decision making process. People to people relationships.
I’m EXHAUSTED with the bragging nature of people on social networks. Which is funny that I’m using a social network to forward my motives.
Recently, I was crying in my room about my failures as a mom. I had lost my temper for the umpteenth time with my kids. I was overwhelmed and totally unable to understand what I was going through. Add on the impact of being sick, and you’ll understand my temper was just quick in general.
I digress, I cried in my room, “WHAT AM I DOING? THESE KIDS WOULD BE SO MUCH BETTER OFF WITH A MORE PATIENT MOM!” I was devastated at this admission. I know I am not alone. But I sure felt alone.
The realization that I am comparing myself to moms on Facebook, the ambitions of Pinterest, and the lack of interacting with real people compounded this heartache was insane.
From that I decided I needed to log off Facebook once and for all on a personal level, and reach out to moms that feel like they aren’t living up to incredible standards that are unachievable even by the most seasoned of moms.
The use of the Facebook website page is where I begin. And I hope that if I can reach even just one person that feel sub par in any area of their live to help them understand their purpose is much greater than it seems, then it was worth the “cut off” of the personal level of Facebook.